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I don’t want my identity individualized to my actual self/person….Jerzy Kosinski

The borderline between narration and fantasy. Underlining both is secondary elaboration.  Our self is constricted along this parameter.

eHistorical Truth, Narrative Truth: quotes and responss

My character’s relationship with Sue (along with her comments).
… engagement and challenge …  that’s a significant design

component of video games.

sandboxed games and text adventure games…

tNew Yorker article on Devil Worshippers …

The realization of how interrogation can influence narrative… which narrative truth best fits the facts

Hans Vaighinger
Rashomon

memory distortion, my dissertation,
The Making of a Murderer nephew’s interrogation.

An attempt to rise above Truth:  Digitalization and Uploading of Mind and similarities to Mindlessness… UG and more recently mentions in NYTimes article. … a tendency to confuse Mindlessness with mindlessness

The D.W. Winnicott: It is “joy to be hidden, but disaster not to be found.”

also use I to distinguish and set up a mono dialogue

Kosinski could not perceive his own identity difusion? (no double nihilism) but Pirandello could

now once the ideas are  throw out there the environment is better equipred  to potentially  further develop

Elaboration

Federn’s synthetic functioning.

This process expands attention …

(the amount of information Kurtzier hierarchy?)

Preparing a network of thoughts, aphorisms, cultural artifacts … curation … suspend it by upload …

Here I present my narrative office… here is a link to my historical office

Schafer’s Analytic Attitude.
Schactel Experiential Foundations of the Rorschach
Donald Spence’s Narrative Truth
Sartre’s double nihilism

Transference

Peter D. Ouspensky personally confessed the difficulties he was experiencing with “self-remembering,” which has later been defined by Osho as ‘witnessing’. The present phraseology in the teachings of Advaita is to be in awareness, or being aware of being aware. It is also believed to be consistent with the Buddhist practice of ‘mindfulness. The ultimate goal of each is to be always in a state of meditation.

Witnessing

The Observing Ego

Countertransference

Sartre’s double nihilism

Schafer


To integrate:

The parallel “process (play) of Luigi Pirandello and George Kelly

And this is where the viewer enters the theater … The audience as participant comes in…. Where the relationship becomes productive.George Kelly fine tuning his character

Adventure games to sandboxes

From  Vannevar Bush to Hypercards

Pale Fire and Apophenia

Reality Hunger

…if things go right the narrative will emerge from the clippings
The self-doubt is on the table  and the proof is in the pudding .

Narrative:self ::plot:story?

Articles emerging posts… Mindmaps emerging from articles ….

Act of Creation ,Kurzweil,   Vannevar Bush ….

Creating narratives for patients
Campbell and Neuman’s hero myths

But more valuable myths of acceptance
… And how to mediate  sustainable relationships amongst us various characters as the characters in Search of an Author did.

the narrative self  smooths things over … It edits as well as copy edits…. it makes it easier to remember

Apophenia and Creativity

delusions and even hallucinations can serve as densive mechanisms against disintegration

Pirandello sat in his writing room into which characters came to him to share their narratives (img) King Henry wrote narratives for everyone he came in contact with George Kelly wrote characters for his patients. action takes place in the dialogue between therapist and patient…. subjectivism, Socratic Dialogue Object Relations Winnicott and the Squiggle Game Online Games Analytic Attitude Object Relations as a dialogue between entities … entities joining up to form an identity Endgame : the externalized dramatization of psychic object relations Gibson?:Cyberspace is the space which you enter on the telephone. Now social apps. Narrat

DocDee at Queensboro

First week initiation by the posse. I was given the posse: the kids that staff couldn’t control.

The posse initiated me. Three of them came into my office  one on each side and one behind me. The one behind me put me in a chock hold which they had seen on TV wrestling. The door had been locked. I banged my feet on the wall before I lost consciousness.

The ring leader Calvin was my first presentation at this meeting.  Calvin I got much feedback on how I should have handled it. Don’t let him know you are afraid (all other staff accomplished this by avoiding him).

Then the “administation’s initiation :
Administration Craig response: you should have handled it better.

Community Meetings:

Where the patients could discuss in front of staff any problems they were having. The staff had announcements of events for the day (which rarely took place… and how to deal with the problems which were presented. (A new ping-pong was expected within the next two months)

The subject of the possess came up. Report to staff and/or community meeting any incidences there or if you felt uncomfortable to a staff you trusted.

It was assumed that once it was reported it would be taken care of. Although no one saw anything taking care of afterwards,  no one folowed up.

where the abuse is ventilated and dealt with “therapeutically” but contained and not documented

The log book at the nurse’s station :  entries were pibrforhand with a supervisor

After Community Meeting Staff Meeting

Staff  Meetings:

Staff meetings with individual patients…  Treatment plan discussed in great detail, all staff heads involved … Mark somewhat obese, passive, … nervous, frequently readjusts his eyeglasses … is an obedient patient passively (as staff wishes, since they have two more to get through) and then when offered a chance for his input asks for a pair of eyeglasses that fit.

Everyone just seemed dedicated to doing the less work possible. The staff meetings provided the verbiage to accomplish this. The Head took notes and sometimes interrogated, sometimes complimentary and infrequently would severely criticize But you had to attend the staff meetings or you didn’t know what not to do to get any work done.

Staff heads,  medical staff, and administrators attended the staff meetings. All those who worked directly with the patients didn’t. I attended because I was the  only psychologist there and thus represented the psychology departmentCraig, the team leader, got the cream of the crop. His favorite was a well behaved female youngster. He often brought up her progress in staff meetings as an example of how to work with patients. No one of the staff gave him criticism because he didn’t seem to want or need it.

Direct care workers did all the work. Aides, maintenance staff had some of the closest contacts with

 

Neither patient or staff follows up on these treatment plans… and   the same basic plan is often repeated with added words like continued etc.

Notes were taken by the Director/ Chief,  … a scribe who was in charge of the official recording of the meetings. (see The Written Word)

echnique first developed at Queensboro…. assigned to Quality Assurance  who had me in administration building where able to break into their computer system

Patient lawyer was invested in making people shit n their pantsDr. Noman implemented the narrative his characters: those who who didn’t hold the line… rewriting characters stories (patients and staff)   like a bureaucratic George Kelly

The testing case with red flags of child abuse with Dr. Noman … he both agreed that the State investigation would take care of the historical truth … but we disagreed as to what the tests revealed about the narrative truth…

then Queensboro”s Library at where connected same and  delivered messages  and connected Intenret . Librarian was Russian and understood my plight

Psychology Department met in one of the back rooms… I was neither invited nor had the courage to attend.

then The Learning Center

the concept of mediation

Organizational coverups : child abuse and politics

Team meeting where the agenda was how to have me  killed

there I had little doubts of the historical truth of what I was witnessing because the attempts at cover up and retaliation were difficult to ignore. It  was the behavior of others both organized communal and  personal idiosyncratic on the surface but communally consistant underneath that …  the guiding thought was not to give in to the pressures and and continue on my journey to the end.
the consisency and lack of doubt that I was I was acting with self integrity was reassuring

able to focus on my work

in therapy embrace doubt about yourself because that’s the only why I could enter into the transferential space

virtual reality as a transferential space …

the Death of Socrates

 

Notes:

parallel with psychoanalytic view of secondary elaboration in dream formation

Dialogue starts from the self

The self starts from the other

Object relations

These are the  boundaries and parameters of this book space… see   Hillman in regards to boundaries and parameters of the therapeutic session

Was Laura going to make it? Should I text? Was I too probing. It was her time so we were already working whether she was physically present or not.

Was she escaping from face-to-face into the clouds?

What was her last text?

Would  I be acting out? In? if I checked now.

 

Reality Hunger
…and now the writing of itself begins.
…if things go right the narrative will emerge from the clippings
The self-doubt is on the table  and the proof is in the pudding .

Narrative:self ::plot:story?

Articles emerging posts… Mindmaps emerging from articles ….

Start with my notes as Pale Fire,  Shields clippings  into articles… Apophenia From links to posts to articles/chapters

Act of Creation , Kurzweil,   Vannevar Bush ….

The soul/consciousness arrives on the stage where the pieces/clippings comes together

Mind maps, thesaurus program

Re It is the place where someone finds relations between these clippings that the self engages

And self-doubt whether the chemistry is where On the scale of apophenia

the narrative self  smooths things over … It edits as well as copy edits…. Finds the most immediate (but not necessarily the most efficient way) of relieving stress and providing comfort

Now I sitting in my private office waiting for patients to come in

in many ways similar to how both Pirandello George Kelly sat in theirs.

Apophenia and Creativity

delusions and even hallucinations can serve as densive mechanisms against disintegration

This is where I present my narrative truth.

But like my characters, I need to protect my historical identity…. I don’t want my identity individualized to my actual self/person….   Jerzy Kosinski

like Freud’s blank screen I want it to enter into the dialogue naively … It’s the dialogue (and not merely verbal) that does the transforming the interactions….

Here I present my narrative office… here is a link to my historical office

Schafer’s Analytic Attitude.
Schactel Experiential Foundations of the Rorschach
Donald Spence’s Narrative Truth
Sartre’s double nihilism

My character’s office.
My character’s relationship with Sue (along with her comments).
My paper:The Psychotherapeutic Use of Cyberspace

… engagement and challenge …  that’s a significant design component of video games.  I think more important in many ways than superior graphics or number of levels …

and then catch myself going on and experiencing social shame …go ahead kid… I know you can do it… you’re just a late bloomer

Mindcraft and Autism

sandboxed games and text adventure games…

technique first developed at Queensboro…. assigned to Quality Assurance  who had me in administration building where able to break into their computer system

Queensboro: Narration by Decree

Patient lawyer was invested in making people shit n their pantsDr. Noman implemented the narrative his characters: those who who didn’t hold the line… rewriting characters stories (patients and staff)   like a bureaucratic George Kelly

The testing case with red flags of child abuse with Dr. Noman … he both agreed that the State investigation would take care of the historical truth … but we disagreed as to what the tests revealed about the narrative truth…

New Yorker article on Devil Worshippers …

The realization of how interrogation can influence narrative… which narrative truth best fits the facts

Hans Vaighinger
Rashomon

memory distortion, my dissertation,

 

An attempt to rise above Truth:  Digitalization and Uploading of Mind and similarities to Mindlessness… UG and more recently mentions in NYTimes article. … a tendency to confuse Mindlessness with mindlessness

then Library where connected same and  delivered messages  and connected Intenret . Librarian was Russian and understood my plight

Psychology Department met in one of the back rooms… I was neither invited nor had the courage to attend.

then The Learning Center

the concept of mediation

Organizational coverups : child abuse and politics

Team meeting where the agenda was how to have me  killed

there I had little doubts about the historical truth of what I was witnessing because the attempts at cover up and retaliation were difficult to ignore. It  was the behavior of others both organized communal and  personal idiosyncratic on the surface but communally consistant underneath that …  the guiding thought was not to give in to the pressures and continue on my journey to the end.

the consistency and lack of doubt that I was I was acting with self-integrity was reassuring

able to focus on my work

in therapy embrace doubt about yourself because that’s the only why I could enter into the transferential space

virtual reality as a transferential space …

the Death of Socrates

The D.W. Winnicott: It is “joy to be hidden, but disaster not to be found.”

call myself diamond like borges

also use I to distinguish and set up a mono dialogue

Kosinski could not perceive his own identity difusion? (no double nihilism) but Pirandello could

 

Pirandello sat in his writing room into which characters came to him to share their narratives (img)
King Henry wrote narratives for everyone he came in contact with
George Kelly wrote characters for his patients.
action takes place in the dialogue between therapist and patient…. subjectivism,
Socratic Dialogue Object Relations Winnicott and the Squiggle Game Online Games Analytic Attitude Object Relations as a dialogue between entities … entities joining up to form an identity
Endgame: the externalized dramatization of psychodynamic object relations
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